his love endures forever;

Saturday, May 24, 2014

Finally on VPN after a really long time and yup a really unusual occasion that I'm blogging.

Just came back from shidu after a short holiday with my friends. I guess it is counted as the first time I'm going on a vacation with friends(coming to China is not really counted). It was not too bad I guess. Not a lot of activities but enough cuz somehow it was tiring already. The rush to catch the train was exciting though. Chiong like crazy. Ended up in a crowded train and finding a group of girls on our seat and trying to act cute to get us to change places with them -.- Finally had BBQ! yay! poor fish that got killed on the spot though :/ Went water rafting and bungee jumping too. 2 activities that I am trying for the first time. Water rafting wasn't all too exciting and bungee was not bad though the 脑冲血 feeling wasn't fun at all. Free fall is still something that I have yet to learn to appreciate I guess despite loving roller coaster rides.

Anyway, (at a lost for words). China has been fine I think. It's prob a time for me to get fitter, study harder, get to know ppl better, exploring Beijing a bit more and learning to live by myself. I somehow feel that it has been long enough. I do miss Singapore and the people back there. Comfort zone. Though, studying has became more interesting I feel, esp the western medicine part. So why did I choose tcm in the first place right lol. Going through a detour to learn a little bit of western medicine in chinese. But I feel that the hospitals here really do integrate Chinese and Western medicine very well. Maybe it's just better than anything I've seen in Singapore. I think that it's difficult to achieve this level of integration because people don't trust TCM that much in Singapore. In China, it's the opposite but because of the advancement of Western medicine technology, they have no choice but to keep up. But they have indeed done well in trying to keep up as well as to retain their roots.

Things I want to do:
- bake more
- lose weight, 3kg at least
- intern in tuina, high blood pressure and alzheimer's
- travel ard China: tianjin, inner mongolia, chengdu, qingdao
- make a scrapbook
- go to happy valley

Sometimes I still struggle between the line of being nice and being realistic. Especially with people around. Don't think I'm a really good judge of character and I always feel that I should be nice. It's really good to know that Sok thinks that I hardly talk bad about people though I feel that I do quite a bit (which I know I shouldn't be doing). How nice should we be and when should we draw the line? How much should we tolerate before people take advantage of your niceness? Too many grey areas and blurry lines. Wisdom.

trumpets forever - 9:49 PM :)