In the past few days, God has been really good and so real to me
On Friday I had my wen bing exam. And I was really scared cuz like it seemed like there were so many things that I couldn't rmb. Especially who said what and who wrote what book... I was like 'i really don't care who said what and who wrote what'. But I prayed really hard before the exam cuz I was scared that I would do badly and it's like a 6 AU module. In the end, God answered my prayers. The paper wasn't too difficult and I managed to actually guess some of the answers correctly. There was one qn that I didn't even know what they were asking for exactly so I just tried writing the ans according to what I interpreted the qn to be. In the end, it wasn't exactly what I thought it was but at least my answer fitted 3/5 of the correct answer. I finished the paper early and came out of the exam hall feeling quite good. after that I realised that I had friends that didn't have time to finish the paper. Really thankful.
And on Saturday, I was just talking to choc abt like the forgiveness thing and I was still saying that Sunday's cell is abt forgiveness so it might prob help me. But God didn't let me wait until cell. During main service, Dr Ashley Crane preached on forgiveness and even gave an altar call. I was the first one to go up and he prayed for me. He said that he sees a closed up flower and told me to let the unhappiness go and open up and be a flower in full bloom. I tried, I told God that I couldn't do it on my own and that I really needed Him to help me. And also thanks to choc who care to comfort me. I didn't really expect an instantaneous change after the altar call and I was still thinking whether I have to do like a specific thing to show or prove that I really let it go. But after the service, I realised that the bitterness was really all gone. I couldn't really believe it at first and I was very cautious abt my behaviour but I realised that God really took it away and I didn't have to be careful and pretend to be polite in case I say something mean unintentionally.
And one more thing, I managed to get my first choice of FYP project so I can go to Cebu! :D
Yup, so really really praise God. He is so awesome (: