It's Wednesday! One day nearer to 27th March. I am happy over that fact :)
Tired. Had sing and strum prac today. Prac went well I guess. At least we finished up the 3 songs though not perfect. And hall anniversary dinner which was quite boring cuz I was tired and didn't do anything but eat and sit there and stone. Kay Wen even said that I don't even bother to fu yan him like I normally do lol.
I can rant here. Since they will never read this. I am so irritated with the last minute changing of song. Where got last minute come in and listen then give so many comments and make us change so many things one. Ok fine, I agree the comments were constructive. Couldn't u come in earlier. And everytime ask things nobody wants to say anything. But after everything is decided, all the objections will come. Seriously, if the key is too low, just say. We already changed it so what is making it a bit higher. It wasn't even a bit too low. Had to raise by 5 semitones in the end. And think the song too difficult, nobody said anything. He practised so hard for it already then now change song. Really? We have one last prac before the performance and u want to change song. I am tired of hearing complains after I make the decision cuz everybody said they're fine with anything. If you don't want to give any suggestions, just keep quiet and accept what is decided. Not like you weren't given a choice. Seriously. what's their problem.
Tmr is a really long day. Lessons from 8.30 to 5.30 with only 1 hour break. I really will need coffee tmr. And at night going to study also. I guess it's good to start early for 108 and not be so last minute like 109. But 109 was seriously easy, which is a good thing :) They're still asking abt the definition of diffusion and active transport at uni level when we learnt it in sec 1? lol.
I want to eat mango too!
rawr. I really have no idea what to write for a research paper and how to do it in fact. Are we just supposed to find a lot of info on a topic and summarise them or must we add in our own point of view and stuff? If it is the former, isn't it something like just copying wholesale? Thinking about it, I rather take an exam cuz I can study for it. It's standard and just requires memorizing. I really cannot come up with a proposal right now when I understand less than half the things that are happening in class. I think I made a mistake taking this elective in the first place. How now brown cow?
On another hand, 2 very funny statements from yesterday...
''Presenting to you... the heap!''
''Why so smelly? It's you lah!'' This is funny only when it comes from kids haha.
我想说其实你很好
你自己却不知道
真心地对我好
不要求回报
Today was an eventful day. Went for church wedding, cell outing then cell. Church wedding and cell were okay. Cell outing was enjoyable. Somehow at this point of time, I wouldn't say anything was fun. I am still worrying about next week though I have no idea why I'm not doing anything about it. It's prob the 'it's still recess week' mood. When Monday starts and I get back to school, everything will suddenly hit me and I will realised that I'm quite dead if I don't prepare for my presentation and do my proposal for Tuesday. So why am I still slacking? :(
Sometimes I think I don't really understand people. I cannot get what they're trying to do. For people that are not that close to me, I won't really bother. For people who are closer to me, I would like to know what happened. But I'll be scared that they don't want to say. So I'll normally ask a bit and if they don't reveal much, I'll stop asking. But then again, there are people who require a lot of probing before they will say anything.
Actually I don't really know if it's a good thing for me to ask and try to know and understand everything that happened. Cuz I think I'm too fortunate and I haven't gone through what they have gone through so I cannot really put myself in their shoes. At this point that I don't understand, I can assume that there's something I don't know about which can explain their actions. I'm afraid that after I know everything, I still cannot understand why they're doing what they're doing and I'll be like'why are they being ridiculous?'
And we just learnt in cell today to put the interests of others before our own, to see others as better as ourselves, to not be conceited. Actually, I just realised something. There's also this part that says something like to mix with people who are lower than you and not like discriminate them or something along that lines. If you see others as better than you, then there's no one lower for you to mix with. Oh well, just a random thought. May even be wrong if I remembered the bible verse wrongly or interpreted the meaning wrongly.
My attitude is getting more and more unacceptable. That's so not the way to treat people. Be nicer. Speak sweeter :)
Gu wen exam is over! Like finally. But sadly, that's not the end of things :( I have HC440 presentation next tue and I haven't read the readings at all and I'm supposed to hand in a proposal for my research paper which I have no idea how to get about doing it. And next wed got BS109 quiz :( seriously, what recess week.
But nevertheless, I enjoyed myself today:) The movie was really cute. Gnomeo and Juliet. And some parts were super funny. And jamming was quite fun. It's fun to play the keyboard when everything else is on super loud volume and nobody can hear me play, including myself XP And walked in the rain today haha. Something which I haven't really done for quite some time. I normally avoid it cuz I don't want to get my things wet. Maybe should do this again next time:) Oh wait I rmb the last time I walked in the rain. It was for FOC canvassing and I fell sick immediately after that -.-
Not looking forward to most of the stuff on tmr but looking forward to Friday :) Tmr got tuition, sns prac and cheer training when all I feel like doing is staying at home to while my time away. And in between those need to wash clothes and study I guess. Oh but meeting Dina for tea :) Wanted to vaccum the floor but I predict that I won't have enough time and I'll be too lazy anyway :/
I am tired. Not tired as in I want to sleep. But I guess I'm tired of my activities and commitments. Simple Life? Not so easy somehow. 27th March. Hopefully when that day finally ends, I will not be disappointed. I will not let myself be :)
"I'm not illiterate! My father and mother were married! " Haha :)
I decided to catch up on the Japan earthquake news today by reading the news reports on it for the past 3 days. And I was suddenly reminded of this prophecy by some pastor about an earthquake in Japan that was made a few years back. It's freaky to realise that the prophecy came true and it's even freakier to know that he prophesized other worse natural disasters that will be happening soon:/
Reading the prophesy really reminded me that the world is ending soon. And actually it was the words in the news reports that reminded me of the prophesy. Words like apocalyptical was so Revelations. I remember during that prayer meeting when Ps Andrew read out the prophesy to us, there was this part that mentioned about something that was going to happen in 2012 and my first thought was like 'phew, the world won't end before 2012'. Like seriously-.- But I somehow believe that the world is ending quite soon, like from what everybody is saying and stuff. Which is scary cuz there are so many things undone but at this point of time, we just don't see the urgency. It's so human nature to procrastinate and leave things to the last minute though this may be the most important thing ever.
But anyway, what an unapt time to read the news when I have my exam in 2 days time and I have not finished studying. Then again, exam period is the time that I read the newspapers and practise my piano the most -.- Cuz these are the 2 activites that I can do without feeling that guilty that I'm not studying. And with my awesome skills of procrastination, I guess I can pray for a miracle, esp for this one.
And yes. The previous paragraph totally depicts(seems like a wrong word to use but I cannot think of a better one at this moment) the sentence before that in ways more than one. What an irony.
Yay! A new post. Like finally :) just so that someone will not keep re-reading the previous post which was right at the top and keep analysing it XP haha no lah. just joking.
It's recess week! But then with a 6AU exam on wednesday, what recess week? :( But that gives me an excuse to skip all my hall stuff from sunday to wed. It's a very valid reason cuz I haven't been studying much cuz of all the hall stuff I have:/ Must study!
Oh man. one term is over already. How time flies. But somehow, I am really looking forward to the long holidays in June. Seems quite exciting. But there's still one term of school and all the final exams to go through first. Not that I dislike school actually. And now I'm looking forward to after 27th March. It'll probably be the first time that I'm really free from hall stuff(hopefully). And I better not make myself busy with other stuff cuz I'll need to study.
Now the simple life thing is about time. and like how we need to focus on the more important ones so the less important ones should be put aside. But it's really difficult to give up stuff i think. It's probably less of I really want to do it but more of I'll disappoint/ pangseh ppl if I give them up. Like the 3 performances for cult night. I don't think it's really that important but how to say that I don't want to perform. And so here I am comforting myself with the fact that everything will be over after 27th March.
But the most important thing now is still 16th March which will be over in the blink of an eye so I better make full use of that blink to study so that I will not regret it sometime in june or july i think.