Sunday, February 28, 2010
I'm actually really tired but well decided to blog. and not going to narrate. have a few things to say actually but don't know if i should say it here. don't think it's going to change anything and it may just make some ppl upset. and since i don't like it, i shouldn't do it right? but i guess i'm just too cowardly to talk face to face or it's just that i normally get swayed by the people's opinions when i heard their side of the story. like when 2 ppl come and tell me 2 different sides of a story, i don't think i've really taken a stand unless it's very obvious that one party is wrong.
i'm not angry or upset at you. it's just that what you say make me feel lousy about myself. Not your fault, just that I don't think I take it well. Like I already know that I don't do it well, I don't need you to remind me. And when you do, I put myself down even more. Like how lousy I am and stuff. But the fact is I know I shouldn't be doing that. Cuz like God made us, so when I put myself down, I'm telling God that He didn't do a good job. And I fully know that I shouldn't be doing it. So I was upset for doing something that I know I shouldn't be doing. But I'm fine already yup. I think only one person who reads this will understand this haha.
It's all about God and not about us. God has this specific way of living that He wants us to live- a life without sin, a life that is pleasing to Him. But very often, we don't know the exact standards or we simply forget. That's why God put people esp elders around us. To teach us when we don't know and to remind us when we forget. But I know it's not very easy to obey. Sometimes, I just refuse to do something simply because I'm told to do it. Like I just want to rebel. I know I shouldn't do it. But I really don't want to simply do what people tell me to do. And I found the best solution is to just do the right thing. Do what you're supposed to do before anyone needs to tell or remind you. Don't know the standards? Read the Bible.
trumpets forever - 9:43 PM :)
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Today was a rather busy day. Had work from 8 to 5.30 as usual. then piano lesson from 6.15 to 7.15. tuition from 7.30 to 9pm. I was afraid I'll be late for tuition and have no time for dinner before piano. But thanks to my wonderful daddy, he came to fetch me from cgm and I reached limbang at 5.35 and andrea's house at 7.20pm haha. Not only was I not late, I was still early :) Thanks loads daddy! :D
hmm still very little students in school. they extend their own cny holidays haha.
ok, i'm tired. shall go sleep soon :)
trumpets forever - 10:03 PM :)
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
cny holidays are going to be over:( back to work and normal life tmr. busy busy busy. my schedule is officially filled for february. anyone want to make appointment for march? XP just joking. it's week 7 already. looking forward to march holidays haha. lol, like i'm back in school like that. but first, there's going to be alumni prac next tuesday! yay! I miss my trumpet. hopefully still can play :D
went chalet yesterday. we played mahjong through the night. yan, weiling, qing lin and i. play until like 5 plus then we were hungry so we cooked noodles to eat. and the noodles made us tired so we went to sleep at 6 plus. it was time for gu po to wake up! we haven't sleep they wake up already haha. the children are really cute:) i only played with aden, yan ling and annie actually. oh annie is really pro. she's 2 and a half and she can use chopsticks to eat noodles by herself. and she eats very quickly. zai :D
lol. my schedule is full but then at times like now i don't really have anything to do-.- i should be doing my theory homework actually. I always bring to cgm and do during my break on the day of my piano lesson. super last minute XP hmm seems like people are still busy celebrating cny. very little ppl online. a lot of my friends seem to be having fun learning driving. haha makes me feel like learning too cuz it sounds fun. but eh no car to drive so no point learning. at least it's not that urgent. pass my theory exam first then say ba.
trumpets forever - 9:29 PM :)
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Happy Chinese New Year!!! XD
Went to church today. I think it's been very long since I went to church during CNY. In fact, I don't even remember if I went for CNY service before. Cuz we used to go to popo's house earlier. But it's getting later and later now. Today, when I came back from service, Yan was still sleeping -.- And we weren't the first at popo's house:)
I think dressing up makes me feel tired. Cuz it's not 'me'. Or rather I'm not used to it. I was like tired for the first half of the day, I thought it was cuz I woke up early for church. But then after I changed into my casual clothes, I didn't feel tired anymore. Maybe the wrong degree of contacts gives a headache too. or maybe that's just my own opinion. Point is I'm still more comfortable not dressing up at least as of now. But I guess when you're used to it, it seems like you and you won't really feel weird or different.
Hmm that's when I love you seems to be my new favourite song for now. And new favourite phrase 'Hey apple!'. Haha to understand that, go watch the annoying orange. The orange is really irritating but it's very funny :D
trumpets forever - 10:25 PM :)
Sunday, February 07, 2010
It's Sunday today!
Went church. Helped with the Hi-kids. Watched Ponyo haha. I finally finish watching it. The song is really cute :) Everytime at creative the children will 'rock their boats' to this song. And they look super cute rocking to the song :D
Then sang for youth. And had cell outing. Basically ate lunch, shopped and took lots of pictures:) Jump shots are tiring, esp when you have to jump a lot of times cuz cannot get one nice one. But we had fun. Very tired now:/ Oh but we got a cool cell picture. Our cell size instantly doubled haha :D
I realised what's the problem already. My life has no direction now. It's not that I don't have anything to do. I have things to do everyday. But there's just like no focus. I shall find out more about university and read more books. Pray.
trumpets forever - 9:35 PM :)
Saturday, February 06, 2010
When you have to look away
When you dont have much to say
Thats when I love you
I love you, just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when I love you
I love you, endlessly
And when your mad cuz you lost a game
Forget Im waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you, no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
Thats when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you cant quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
Thats when I love you
I love you, more than youll know
And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
Thats when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
No matter what
This song reminds me of God's love even if it didn't mean that originally. That God loves us no matter what. That we can count on Him now and forever. Because God loves us even when we're disobedient, when we're naughty, when we turn away from Him and hurt Him, when we do things that even make us hate ourselves. It is often in these kind of trying times that love is tested. Human love cannot withstand these. We retaliate when people hurt us, we want to hurt them back. We want revenge when people betray us. We get angry when people don't match up to our expectations. But God loves us anyway.
'The more I learn, the more I love, the more my heart can't get enough.' That's how our love for God should be. Because He first loved us.
trumpets forever - 10:28 PM :)
Haven't post for quite some time. Haha am I really that busy? People like to say that I'm very free since I don't need to study. Not true lor! Oh well, maybe more free than last time.
By today, all the guys who go NS in Feb should have been in already. Wah, a lot of hair cut off these 3 days XP Nvm, they won't read this until maybe chinese new year.
Yay! Chinese New Year is coming:) It's a holiday! 4 days of no work. And 2 days of celebrations. The children will definitely be very cute in their new year costumes. Must bring camera to take picture:) Next week art will be spent making new year decorations. should be fun :) I'll kope ideas from Creative and teach the children in CGM :P Creative is really very nicely decorated. The children started making new year decorations since about 2 weeks ago. So everywhere is nice and red now :D
Hmm I think I should start doing something productive. I don't know what yet though. But it's like every week I just work a lot. Should think of something that I like and want to do. Maybe reading books isn't a bad idea. Instead of using the com for 4 hours every week don't know doing what. Waste of time tsk.
trumpets forever - 4:19 PM :)
