his love endures forever;

Saturday, October 10, 2009

wow. i haven't blogged for almost a week:) that's a good thing:) haha. shall blog today then hopefully will stop until after A levels unless I have something pertinent to blog about.

I am getting into the mugging mood:) Quite productive until i went to sleep:/ I should not sleep in the afternoon. shall try means and ways to keep myself awake haha.

I realised what it means by without God, we cannot do anything. Cuz like we try our best to do things in the way that we think that it should be done. But nothing really gets done without God. Like we thought about what we should do last week. Then this week when it was mentioned again, I feel that what we discussed was rather insignificant? like ya, we tried our best. But this is something too big for us to be able to change. If God doesn't help us, no matter how hard we try, there's a limit as to what we can actually do. Not saying that we shouldn't try our best though. Just that God is still the most important.

And also, like sometimes when we put things in our face so that we can see it daily and hopefully remind us to do a certain thing. I realised that if in our hearts, we are not willing to do anything, no amount of post-its, reminders or anything visual that we try to put up will help. we can see it everyday and ignore it and eventually look at it as just a passing object of no significance.

everything boils down to what we really want doesn't it?

what is the purpose of your life? can anyone really answer that question?

Lord we need Your grace and mercy. We need to pray like never before. We need the power of Your Holy Spirit to open heaven's door.

trumpets forever - 10:56 PM :)

Monday, October 05, 2009

gosh. how come ppl can blog so openly about their feelings and nobody knows what they're talking abt :/ i really cannot. somehow i'll just reveal to much lol.

anyways, i realised i forgot to talk abt sat and and yesterday's dinner.

Sat we celebrated maf and jamie's birthday. so we had bbq! but it was raining. so we had bbq in the rain! all the more exciting :) the food was really nice:) and jamie's ice-cream cake was nice too! but she didn't want to eat -.-

oh before the bbq, i went to 'be a teacher'. basically just go to some place to play a movie for kids to watch while i watch over them lah. I don't understand why the kids cannot just sit down and watch the movie properly. most of them can. but there are a few exceptions. they just walk around, talk to their friends, play among themselves etc-.- that movie was one of the longest one i watched:/ but the second group of kids were rather well-behaved fortunately:) I was dreading the time that they would stand up and start walking round. Fortunately they didn't.

Sun was daddy's chinese birthday. so we had steamboat at ama's house. nice food again! haha.

and today, yan left for shanghai for 6 weeks :(

trumpets forever - 10:00 PM :)

Sunday, October 04, 2009

This is horrible. I'm like telling myself I cannot do it already even before I start trying. So obviously cannot right. But I somehow feel that I'm not willing to do it. No regrets? I really doubt so. right now, even if I know that I might regret it next time, I don't want to do it. I rather regret it next time when the time comes:/

Gosh. today is a sunday. supposedly my happiest day of the week. and so why is my post starting with such a depressing thought. guess i just don't want to accept it. like hopefully not accepting it means that it won't come true. what a delusion-.- God's plans are always greater. so why am i trying to live my life my way.

To end on a happy note,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CALVIN!!! :D

trumpets forever - 9:24 PM :)

Friday, October 02, 2009

this sun no LLYWD campaign so why no storm!!!!! :( that means one more week without storm:( and i thought he said we don't have to lead anymore. why got training o.O

difference between:

normal and common

reasoned and reasonable

love and like

think about it. quite interesting :)

trumpets forever - 7:46 PM :)