his love endures forever;

Saturday, May 22, 2010

hmm eventful week I would say.

Had appassionata on Mon! Really enjoyable to play in a band again and see all my band batchmates, seniors and juniors :D But I think the alumni band lacked practise XP oh well, i liked the gimmicks as usual :)

Then from tue to thur worked for an average of 12 hours a day:/ cuz full day at childcare and give tuition and help daddy do stuff. Fri the children had a picnic! So fun haha. I think they wish they had picnics everyday. Get to eat a lot, play with bubbles and draw in the open space:)

yesterday and today went for saturate conference! Oh anyway, yan and daddy are overseas already. left mummy and i at home:(

Saturate. I think the plenary sessions were really awesome :) so sad i missed 2 on the first day :(And 3 out of the 4 sessions/worshops I attended mentioned confidence. I think that was the thing that related to me most. Don't apologise for what God has called you to do. Be confident in what God has given you:) And the Holy Spirit one by Ps Kong Hee was rather impactful. Oh and I like this analogy. God must be in the center of your life before the circumference of your life can be perfect just like how a drawing a perfect circle requires a center for the compass.

And we were somehow talking about the youth in our church too. Like during lunch or something. And everytime the youth is mentioned, I have this feeling of 'wu neng wei li'. there's a mixture of feelings. a feeling of lost like what am i doing, a feeling of regret for not having done more in the past year, a feeling of helplessness looking at the magnitude of what we're facing, a feeling of wanting to do more but not really knowing what and how to go about doing it. And anyway, all of us agreed that it's the attitude.

trumpets forever - 9:57 PM :)

Monday, May 10, 2010

Ok, yesterday there was an illustration of how God is Jehovah Rapha (The Lord who heals). Today, there will be one on Jehovah Jireh (The Lord who provides). God is really good :D

So today, the children at the childcare were eating bananas before lunch. And normally when they eat fruits that require cutting such as apple, watermelon and honey dew, the teachers and us get to eat as well cuz there'll be extra. But when they eat bananas, each of them have exactly one so the adults don't get to eat. So today, didn't get to eat fruit at the childcare. However, went to Christa's house to give tuition and aunty Jennifer offered me a banana after that! And it looks exactly the same as the kind they eat at Creative O :) As in like at home I eat the long ones, but the ones at Creative O and Christa's house were both the smaller ones. See, the Lord provides :D

Haiz... I just decided on tuition dates without checking my calendar. Now need to change 2 out of 4 -.-

Oh ya, today Vicki celebrated her birthday at Creative. I think her family is very rich. She had a 3kg cake with a princess picture on top. Want to know how big that means? 30 of us ate abt 1/3 of the cake. So it could probably feed 100 ppl o.o And her candles were special candles. There were 3 candles, one with a red flame, one with a blue flame and one with a green flame. And she also had a helium balloon reading '3' that was bigger than her... I was like woah...

Worked for 8 hours today and I'm really tired. yawns.

Saturate sounds exciting :D Looking forward to it!

trumpets forever - 9:33 PM :)

Sunday, May 09, 2010

It's Sunday today! :) And it's mother's day! Happy mother's day mummy :)

Phebe is leaving today:( We'll really miss her. And I realised I missed her last session yesterday:( rah. And ya, we were stuck in audi 2 yesterday. Cuz there were only 2 of us and we wanted to go buy stuff together so that got second opinion. But we couldn't leave the audi unlocked and we couldn't lock it either cuz we won't be able to get in after that. So we stoned there for quite long trying to decide what to do. Fortunately, some ppl came for prayer meeting after that so we could both go out :D

Went to ama's house today. Jun Hao is very cute. He's 6. So today someone told him 'it's mother's day today, go give ama a kiss' And he replied 'no. it's mother's day, not grandmother's day' haha. And yan and I made a big decorated corrugated board for ama. We did it in abt 1.5 hours I think. And chinese words are seriously difficult to cut from postcards. Didn't help that I had to draw it mirror-imaged. Yan took 1.5hr to paste and decorate the board while I took 1.5hrs to cut out 2 chinese words -.-

Anyway, my God heals. About 2 weeks plus ago, my leg was a bit pain. Then it got worse after 2 weeks, like it hurts even when I'm walking. Not like very pain until cannot walk kind but it really hurts when I run. I was wondering if there was something wrong cuz it lasted for 2 weeks. So I decided to pray and ask God to heal it and 2 days later, the pain was gone! Like miraculously, it's now like back to normal. God is awesome :)

trumpets forever - 10:22 PM :)

Saturday, May 08, 2010

Thank God the ntu interview went fine. I would even go to the extent to say it's fun lol. It's a very high compliment seeing how I don't like interviews at all. But somehow, the interviews seem to get less and less serious haha. The interviewers were very friendly and funny. And the questions they ask are seriously -.- Like totally no link to the scholarship haha.

It's Ethan's birthday tmr! He celebrated it in school yesterday though. His parents came and bought him a Mcqueen cake. I didn't even know what Mcqueen was before I saw the cake lol. Different generation already. Kids are actually really smart. They know who they can bully and who they can't. Ethan's mum commented that he seems so capable in school, like can eat himself and everything. That's what every kid does in school. Then she said at home he seems so helpless, need ppl to feed him. Children know that they can bully their parents at home, but in school, teachers won't let them have their way.

Went for alumni prac today. There were 4 trumpeters :) double the last prac but the actual amount should be double today's number though haha. I think I improved a bit:D Last prac cannot really hit the high notes but today a bit better. hooray! I should improve a lot by concert day. Anyway, anyone who has not been to any nanyang band concert before should really attend at least once. It's different from normal band concerts:)

And went church after prac to do the notice board. Took super long to decide on how to decorate it. Glad that we finally finished it. I felt so unequipped without my art stuff and I didn't even bring my pencil box which contains a lot of different coloured pens and markers:( I hope the post-its don't drop. may have to use blue tack if it really does.

trumpets forever - 11:13 PM :)

Thursday, May 06, 2010

Help. I totally don't know how to prepare for the interview tmr. At least the questions for the previous one could be predicted. This one? It'll probably require me to be very ego. Like state my strengths and weaknesses, why should they give me the scholarship, how can i contribute to the school that kind? I'm horrible at those. bleh :/ I didn't bother abt it the whole week cuz I figured worrying abt it for one week wasn't going to help. And I can't find anything online. Like I don't even know what I submitted for that application. Later they ask me why I write this and I'll be like 'huh? I said that?'-.-

I guess I can only pray that I'll be super confident tmr and be very ego about myself. And that they don't ask too difficult questions and that they'll be nice. Ok, stop worrying!

On a side note, Joyleen is super cute :)

trumpets forever - 5:19 PM :)

Monday, May 03, 2010

I wanna thank God for answering my prayer!

This morning I was praying that ntu will reply me email to tell me that they received the email I sent them. cuz the deadline was yesterday and if they didn't receive I prob have to call them and I don't really like calling. So i was praying that they'll see me email and reply and they really did! It was the only email worth checking in my inbox today :) (as in the rest were like job advertisements and lots more rubbish)

And I realised that it's a lot easier to guard your mouth when you're with kids. Cuz firstly, when you use coarse words, they won't understand you so you tend to speak simply and slowly to them without using too many long and cheem words and somehow will naturally not say things that you're not supposed to say. And secondly, they're too cute and innocent that you won't want to pollute them with wrong languages. yup! So I realised that today I didn't say any word that I'm not supposed to say :D (at least out loud XP)

Yay! I can go for alumni prac tmr! :) I shall go early and kope a nice trumpet :P

trumpets forever - 10:34 PM :)

Sunday, May 02, 2010

Today there wasn't cell cuz my whole cell went home to study. (i'm going to type out my rants for a reason which you will see later. it's not for the sake of ranting)

I was actually rather upset at first. I mean they could have at least let me know that they're not coming for cell. Though that won't make up for the time spent preparing for cell, it would make me feel a bit more respected and a bit more noticed. What they did just totally showed me that they don't really bother. They expect the cell leader to be ready for every cell session and be there waiting for them while they just choose as and when they want to appear. And if they choose not to come, just let the cell leader sit there and wait, wondering what happened.

And I was wondering why God let that happen. It's rather disappointing and demoralising. Well, I got my answer. It's God's way of 'teaching me a lesson', letting me know how He feels when I don't do my quiet time. God is prepared every single day, and looking forward to meeting us during our devotion. But when I don't do it, He will be disappointed and sad, and I dunno, maybe a bit abandoned(at least that was how I felt). He'll be there waiting the whole day, hoping that I will do my devotion for that day. God will definitely be more upset than I was today, because He definitely loves me more than I can ever love my cell or any other person or even myself for that matter.

But the thing is, our God is a gracious God. No matter how many times I've failed Him, He still loves me and forgives me. So who am I to be angry with my cell. This is only their first time. I must love them. But I do understand that loving them does not mean letting them do whatever they want. There was a sermon that said that if you must love a person enough before you will point out their mistakes to them. If you just let them do whatever they want, when clearly knowing that what they're doing isn't right, you probably don't love them enough. I will try my best to love them in the way that Jesus loves. I trust that God will give me strength. Nothing is impossible! :)

trumpets forever - 10:39 PM :)