his love endures forever;

Monday, August 31, 2009

When the grass on the other side looks greener, it's time to fertilize your own lawn:)

oh the different forms of emoing XD

This is interesting. I used to play that, now I don't. You used to play this, now you don't.

This is a cool poem! From the book 'A simple life'.

The Dash

I read about a man who stood up to speak

At the funeral of a friend

He referred to the dates on her tombstone

From the beginning to the end

First was her date of birth

Then he mentioned the following date with tears

For what mattered most of all

Was the dash between those years (1925-2005)

That dash represents all the time she spent alive on earth

And it matters not how much we own

The cars, the houses, and the cash

What really matters is how we live and love

And how we spend our dash

So think about it long and hard

Are there some things you'd like to change?

You never know how much time you have left

For life to be rearranged

So when your eulogy's being read and your actions to rehash

Would you be proud of the way you spent your dash?

I spent a very small part of that dash doing organic chem today -.-

trumpets forever - 7:51 PM :)

Sunday, August 30, 2009

had church today. was singing for storm yay! :) although the mike was really very loud:/ scary. and the notes all so high and i cannot remember the harmony... but nvm. God won't judge how well I sing as long as I'm singing to Him:)

Today is a Sunday but somehow now not very happy. weird. maybe cuz I'm tired. Was in church from 7.45am to 5.30pm. Woah. 10hrs. When people are tired, their moods are not good and thus don't tend to think of happy things?

Everything on my calendar except the topics for study are getting cancelled everyday. Oh wow.

That was really a weird dream. and i only remember that scene oh so clearly.

Faith hope love.

God and me. We are majority :) Because my god is enough for everything! Love enough. Enough to see me through everything. Including this not very nice thing called A levels.

It's not a problem. It's a challenge. A challenge that I can overcome by the blood of the lamb and the word of His testimony.

For the Lord is with us. His glory goes before us. To prepare the harvest and every step we'll take. Open doors to show us. His favour is upon us. We will trust in the promise of our Lord.

Live one day at a time. Like live in the NOW.

I shall sleep early and wake up early to mug tmr :)

trumpets forever - 9:36 PM :)

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Pictures! :) haha of like groups of ppl in my life :)

my family!

a bit bigger family:)

08s72

class again

CLL class :)

08s72 with 09s72

hc band!

my section! :D

and my beloved CATS :)

JAEL!

AARs!

X-men

and not forgetting my sec 4 friends :)

trumpets forever - 11:07 PM :)

SO. the last official day of my lessons is over. I will never follow that timetable again. no more PE on mon, one hour break to go high school on tue, CT on wed, the B block classroom day on Thursday and the every lesson also more than 1.5hr friday.

Made cheesecake for my teachers for teachers' day:) zhang lao shi is so sweet :D Mr Khairul's message was nice too:) Mr Chan's card is pretty! (oh man. look at my limited vocab-.-)

Hmm I need to stress myself to work harder. Cuz I don't take well to external stress like maybe from other people. I just have this tendency to be 'rebellious' and do something other than what people say. Like if they ask me to study, I'll want to do anything except study-.- And I have always been quite slack like aiya pass can already. I don't expect much of myself. So I don't work hard enough. That's bad. tsk.

I guess there's really nothing to compare. It's just about me and Him.
Jesus you are my best friend. You will always be. Nothing will ever change that :)

5 days to prelims :/
65 days to the start of A levels! o.O
Can I start freaking out!

trumpets forever - 10:16 PM :)

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Yesterday was the last PE lesson. Today was the last lesson with Zhang lao shi. How many lasts are there going to be this week :( Much as I don't really want to go to school cuz I think staying at home will be more productive, it's sad to know that it's really the last lessons already.

On a happier note, I think school was relatively productive today:) I understood plant cloning a bit more! I knew that there were many kinds of tissue culture and stuff but I nv knew why they must have so many. Mr Chan enlightened me today haha. And Zhang lao shi's lesson was good too. Understood quite a lot more. Help us study for test:D

Oh and yesterday the song 'We are the reason' was stuck in my mind. Today was 'Call on Jesus' haha. Let's see what it is tmr :)

This is a really cool quote! Koped from Derek on facebook.

The road to success is not straight. There is a curb called Failure, a loop called Confusion; speed bumps called Friends; red lights called Enemies;caution lights called Family. You will have flats called jobs. But, if you have a spare called Determination; an engine called Perseverance; insurance called Faith, and a driver called Jesus, you will make it to a place called Success!

trumpets forever - 9:04 PM :)

Monday, August 24, 2009

You know, Jesus didn't complain when He died on the cross for me. He could very well say things like what people nowadays will say like "What is this? Why am I dying for a sinner? She did so many wrong things and I didn't. Why am I being punished instead? Not fair. Go punish her. " but He didn't. So who am I to complain?

When we complain, we're telling God that we think He's not doing a good job. That He should do this instead of that. We're telling God what to do. We think we can do better? I don't think so.

Can I be your friend?

trumpets forever - 8:50 PM :)

Sunday, August 23, 2009

It's Sunday today! *beams widely.

So as usual, went to church! This morning super funny. Normally we say we'll leave the house at 8.30am and everyone take our own sweet time and end up leaving at 8.45am then have to rush through breakfast. So today we said we'll leave the house slightly earlier at 8.15am. Then don't know for what reason, everybody prepare super fast and we were all ready by 8am -.- So we were super early in church haha.

The newsletter is finally out. My dream didn't come through:) And talking abt dreams, I dreamt abt Viv last night o.O I think cuz I was like smsing her half asleep. Mummy says I think too much when I sleep-.- I think she'll freak out if I tell her that I dreamt abt her haha.

Today we left halfway through service cuz it was ah gong's death anniversary. And cuz I insisted on going for baptism. Or else we could have left after service and stayed there for a longer time. Yup, so we walked out halfway at 11am. And can you believe it, after all that doing and giving out the newsletter, I forgot to take one for myself -.- Winner. I wonder what they do with the extras...

Went for baptism at Pasir Ris. Thanks daddy for fetching us there. Like so troublesome, had to borrow car then drive there and drive back to return the car:/ It rained! :( But nvm, we still had our service. Nothing can deter us:) Congratulations to all the ppl who got baptised! Dennis, Willy, Lionel, Megan, Jillyn, Lemuel, Wan Ting and the birthday boy. Everytime it's mentioned that he's getting baptised, Ps Andrew will remind everyone that it's his birthday today. I think he did it thrice already haha. And so, Happy Birthday!!! :D

After that came back and slept. I don''t know why after I wake up like keep coughing. I thought it was over already. Yesterday didn't cough but had flu. Then today no flu but the cough came back. Irritating...

12 days to prelims o.O

trumpets forever - 7:25 PM :)

Saturday, August 22, 2009

It's not impossible. I guess it's just that I was always unwilling to do it. I'll try. I will make it a want. Thanks for the enlightenment.

I think that's the disadvantage of hiding stuff. Always keep inside then once it comes all out, nothing can be changed anymore. It's unfair to ppl i know. but if it ever happens that means that i'm pushed to my limits already. and i'm already quite a tolerant person in general.

Love is patient. Love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, It is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

I know it seems impossible and impractical lah. Like how to always trust and hope when this world is so horrible. But with God, nothing is impossible. He did it. So why can't I. Isn't that why He died on the cross. Yes.

Not by strength, not by might. But by the spirit of God.

trumpets forever - 11:16 PM :)

So we cry out Your name
El Shaddai, God of grace
Lord most high, Jesus Christ

We rely on Your grace
Adonai, crowned in praise
Lord most high, Jesus Christ

But when I call on Jesus,
All things are possible
I can mount on wings like eagles' and soar
When I call on Jesus,
Mountains are gonna fall
'Cause He'll move heaven and earth to come rescue me when I call

I dreamt that when I reached church tmr, the newsletter wasn't out -.-

I slept too much:/ Study study

Actually I realised that I'm not really studying. I'm like busy doing homework lah. Like doing questions for revision lectures, doing tutorials, doing extra worksheets given by teachers. Maybe it's supposed to help me revise. But I don't have time to revise before doing or else sure cannot finish doing. So what's the point. They should like give us study break to study before they have revision lectures and stuff.

trumpets forever - 12:43 PM :)

Friday, August 21, 2009

I didn't go back nanyang in the end:/ only a few ppl went back i think. the juniors passed down. Oh man. My juniors are growing up! haha but they'll still be juniors in my eyes :) Pauline's SL and secretary! Congrats :D

People need the Lord. At the end of broken dreams, He's the open door.

Why I cannot add her on facebook? :( Quite interested to get to know her haha.

trumpets forever - 11:43 PM :)

Thursday, August 20, 2009

haiz... time to pack my table again. i thought i just packed it like not long ago -.- maybe this sat.

nycb passing down tmr! go back go back! :) haha can't wait to see who are the new comm and SLs. Last batch that I actually know already.

15 days to prelims hmm.

My whole life is Yours. I give it all, surrender to Your name. Have Your way.

trumpets forever - 10:10 PM :)

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

hmm i think i shouldn't use my speed of doing work to judge the speed that ppl do work at and expect them to work at the same pace as me. Not very fair cuz everyone works differently.

Oh and there's this tendency of people to do things they like. Like obviously. who wants to do things that they don't like. But daddy once said. it's not about doing the thing u like, but rather liking the thing u do. Cuz it's not possible to always only do what u like. If so, who will do the things that nobody like to do? So i guess it's really important to do everything we need to do properly, whether we like it or not. cuz it's sort of our job. Haha so now what i need to do is to like mugging XD

trumpets forever - 9:23 PM :)

Sunday, August 16, 2009

JAEL's Island today! Good job everyone! XD

I'm starting to think that I'm not so patient after all. Haha maybe depends on context. I'm not very patient when people cannot meet deadlines I think. Cuz I just want to get the thing done then very irritating to have to wait for people. So I normally rather do everything myself. And I don't like to chase people for work. Feel very bad to do so especially if they're like very busy already.

It's week 8 already o.O super fast. I must keep to my mugging timetable :D

Counting on God!

because God NEVER fails. Awesome right?

Jesus Awesome in Every Life!

trumpets forever - 10:43 PM :)

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

haha i'm blogging during the week not because i'm very free but i think i'll forget what happened by the time i have time to blog.

well, san yi, Grace, Joanna and May went back already. Or rather left Singapore already. I think they're having a holiday in Shanghai now. We saw them quite a lot this time actually:) that time went bowling. then sat had bbq, mon went swimming then yesterday had 'party' at popo's house. haha so ya.

sat had band farewell. it was quite nice:) thanks juniors! and i like the cap! and the a level cert haha. i should take pic and post it. but jia chen haven't return me yet. he keep forgetting to bring and i keep forgetting to remind him-.- then went to church. i was super super late for the workshop. like 1 hr late and it's only 1.5hrs long:/ then went to audi 2 and see so many ppl there then i don't dare to go in. sat outside for half an hour trying to listen lol. and we had practice and service. Bob Fitts quite zai haha. totally nv tell us that he's going to sing that song then suddenly impromptu sing during service. but the worship was really good:)

after that went to the bbq. apparently uncle nicholas left after the worship to go there too. but i didn't know so end up take bus there and saw him then i was like 'eh i thought i just saw u in church'. yup, didn't eat a lot cuz had subway dinner at church le. helped to bbq. and all the cousins made up a farewell song to sing to san yi and family. haha. and went home abt 11 plus.

on mon, we had cousins outing to je swimming pool! most of us were there except berny and siblings and jamie cuz she too small:/ haha it was really fun. we did funny stuff like trying to go against the current in the lazy river. super difficult can. the current very strong. then ppl like sarah keep getting swept away then had to go get her back haha. and we also took the slides. and screamed our way down. see who scream louder haha. got very unglam photos of us coming out of the slides... and we went wave pool too. and starting capsizing everyone who were on floats haha. oh and we were playing animal mania in the jaccuzi place. whoever do wrong get splashed like crazy. and being all girls, we took a lot of pictures. got our pro photographer Zoey haha. hope melissa upload them soon:) after swimming they went karaoke which we didn't go. but joined them for dinner after that.

tuesday! we gathered at popo's house to see them for the last time before they leave. the most exciting thing that happened was that there was a power failure -.- haha the cousins say they caused it cuz they all squeezed into one lift. and really a lot of ppl. so we were in the dark for quite some time. zi yi was funny. she was calling the ppl who repair this kind of thing then she said 'when will the power come back? we're having a party here.' then dua gu brought a battery operated lamp over which provided quite a lot of light and we were like 'dua gu, u got battery operated aircon or not?' cuz very hot. like 30 plus ppl squeezed into a house with no fan no aircon. we were playing animal mania in the dark, jamie was super cute haha. and when Iain came, the power suddenly came back on! haha our lifesaver. so we continued our normal activities:) and before going home, we took lots of pictures and had lots of hugs. they had to hug every single person walking out of the door haha. but i'll really miss them. like when they're here, we gather a lot more. like in one week, saw them like 4 times. normally our family gathering once a month or less? and we normally also don't hug each other lah. then when they're here, we hug every time we meet and when we part ways. quite heartwarming though :) it's like 'till we meet again' and 'yay! we meet again' haha. well, i'll miss them!

ok very long already. ahhh. how much time did i waste. ok, maybe not waste. spend.

trumpets forever - 8:48 PM :)

Sunday, August 09, 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAULINE!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MRS YAP!

'It's the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting'

'When someone sees the same people everyday, they wind up becoming a part of that person's life. And then they want the person to change. If someone isn't what others want them to be, the others become angry. Everyone seems to have a clear idea of how other people should lead their lives, but none about his or her own.'

'everything in life has its price'

the above 3 quotes are from 'the alchemist'. when i was studying it for lit in sec 1, i didn't really like it. but now when i look back, i realise that a lot of it is actually very true. and it's cool! haha.

my study plan is quite erm not on schedule. cuz this weekend totally nv do work. and tmr got cousins outing somemore.

hmm... so what is it that's changing?

trumpets forever - 9:29 PM :)

Friday, August 07, 2009

National Day celebrations today! haha it was super short. had the normal march past. the first two contingents were really neat then the rest cmi -.- the hands all swinging everywhere then i think once they were off the track they heck care already. got ppl still talking while marching tsk. but i think they really practised very hard for it. high school band played the marching songs for them but could hardly hear cuz we were at the side. Peihua says to tell them to play louder cuz a silent movie isn't nice haha. oh then there were 3 st johns ppl standing at the side i think in case someone faint then in the end one of them first person to not feel well and suddenly sat down on the floor lol.

then we went to the audi for the performances. we had to sit on the first row. actually should be third row one lor. then 70 went in earlier and koped our seats. and we were in front of all the staff so erm cannot do anything that we're not supposed to do. haha but we ended up playing scrabble anyway :) there was harmoc, chinese dance, choir and some funny video. towards the end was the choir part. then we were all just getting high and hyped up when it ended-.- super short can. not fun one. i think last time the nanyang celebrations in the hall was super fun:)

then we had bio lecture. it wasn't very long cuz Mrs Foo skipped all the like ethical and social issues part and said it was self study. then a lot of it just watch animation. haha learn gm food then we were all super hungry and had to look at the golden rice, corn and salmon -.- i almost fell asleep during one of the animations cuz slept quite late last night:/ will elaborate abt yesterday later. i think junlong falling asleep also haha. talk to him no response one. then got a bit of stuff forgot to copy also tsk. so took out my lifesaver - hi chews haha. specially bring cuz i know that i might fall asleep during leture.

after that went for lunch at KAP with some of the class ppl. and came home after that. yep.

yesterday!

i wanted to go home and sleep at 2 when my lessons ended and after buying farewell gifts at lot 1. but then, luther wanted to buy sc gifts and asked if wanted to go together and his lessons end at 4.30 -.- so end up waiting in school for 2.5hrs. but i managed to finish my zuo wen though :) so went to buy farewell gifts. i think they're really cute haha. shall not reveal where we bought it or what we bought in case juniors stumble on this before tmr haha. maybe i'll post pictures after tmr.

went home, ate dinner. then went over popo's house cuz san yi was there. then sit a while and they said they were going out to eat durians so yan and i tagged along:) we squeezed 11 ppl into the van haha. ate a lot of durian seriously. super full towards the end. then zi gim and zi gu were like playing scissors-paper-stone to see who eat the durian haha. and it was like abt 10pm already. and we went CDANS to play bowling! quite fun. all of us cannot really bowl well at first then just tyco all the way. but improved after that. we had lots of fun :) reached home at like past 12 midnight. haha that's why today very scared will fall asleep.

eh bbq shifted to tmr. but fortunately i can leave after worship. or else by time i reach there like 10 plus le. not that anyone will go home before 12 haha. confirm will count down to national day de. but i think jiu jiu have to stay till the end cuz drummer too important. poor thing. haha yesterday i was telling May that jiu jiu will be late. then she was like 'nvm, xiao jiu mu can bring iain over first' haha.

tmr have band farewell too! and also cousins outing which i am not going:( sian. so many things clash on one day. and have the workshop, service and bbq. busy busy. see, there goes my weekend. *flies away*

so many ppl falling sick o.o take turns to have LOA lol. today we had 7 absentees... i think 3 on LOA

trumpets forever - 6:39 PM :)

Sunday, August 02, 2009

Sunday! went to church. Iain came to church too. he's really really cute! And i got to carry him for quite long :) haha he likes the singing in the children's side. like got music then he 'dance' so excitedly XD

I love storm! :) it's awesome. i think it can really change ppl's mood. like i was a bit tired during prac. maybe after playing with iain. but during the worship then like not tired already. just super high and jumping around. and also i think Ivan's mood wasn't too good at the start of prac. but at the end of prac seemed ok already. haha so yeah. see, God is awesome XD

trumpets forever - 10:23 PM :)

Saturday, August 01, 2009

Racial Harmony Day! So colourful XD

and look at what we were doing in the chem lab heh. :D

looks artistic:)

trumpets forever - 4:09 PM :)

haha i dunno what to blog abt. too many things happened during the week.

i made eggtarts today! haha it tastes not bad for a first try:)

you wanted to know how i did it right. well, basically i didn't really do anything. i just listened to their concerns and their reasons for not wanting to go. I didn't like try to persuade them to go actually cuz i don't think it's not much of a use. I just tried to propose alternative solutions to their concerns so that they don't seem that big a factor. Ultimately, the decision is theirs. I won't try to force them to go if they don't want to. No point if they're not happy in the end.

same for you. sorry i haven't been thinking abt it the whole day. but i guess it's really abt what ur motivation is ba. like i told u, though i'm not against it, i am not like super enthu abt it either. but i guess i'm going because my friends are going and also cuz i don't want to turn out regretting it in the future. i think maybe u can think abt that point. like if u look back next time, will u regret ur decision. haha quite useful in making decisions i think. but well, maybe not very helpful for u. i'll think abt it and tell u if i get any inspiration XD

i'm glad that i'm in my part of the class. it may not be the 'main' clique or something. but i'm comfortable in it. and i feel valued(for lack of better word) sort of. like today, i'm glad that people can 'confide' in me and that i was of some help. i think a lot of the things i do are because of the people around me that i care about. i don't want them to be unhappy i guess. if the little things i do or sacrifice can make someone's day then why not? it doesn't take a lot of effort to go for a concert to support someone even though no one u know is going. or spend a bit of time helping a friend when he/she doesn't understand something. accompanying someone to buy something because u know they like company. these may seem small, but it can really make someone happy. i'm talking abt in general though. there are some exceptions :/

trumpets forever - 12:30 AM :)