his love endures forever;

Saturday, July 25, 2009

feel very impatient today. like ppl ask me qn then i don't really feel like talking or replying. talk halfway then convo will end up dead and i don't feel like continuing it. not like i'm tired or anything. i really slept a lot already.

i dunno. maybe i really have a lot of things to say to a lot of ppl. things that may not be very nice but i keep inside for very long already. i might like just type everything out and store it as drafts. knowing me, those ppl will nv know what i want to say.

tmr is a sunday :)

trumpets forever - 10:50 PM :)

Friday, July 24, 2009

hmm like a lot of things happened this week but don't feel like blogging. somehow feels like i'm telling everyone my lifestory when i blog abt everything that happened.

in a nutshell, san yi and May are here:)

Dressed up for racial harmony day today.

finally a relative free sat XD

how wonderful it is to be able to not think abt anything when you sleep.

trumpets forever - 11:23 PM :)

Monday, July 20, 2009

happy birthday yan! haha. you're now 15. so old. hope you had a great birthday and that you'll have a great year ahead with all the thingums like debates, school and stuff XD

Ok i shall blog abt the weekend and today. it was quite exciting haha.

Saturday had interview skills workshop in the morning. it was rather useful and interesting and got to know more ppl. then after that went to west coast to play frisbee. too 151 to kent ridge interchange and had to walk for 20 mins before i reached there. haha warm ups. joyce was there too! so i wasn't the only girl XD haha but both of us hardly ran during the game. every time the game start we run to different ends and camp there and wait for the frisbee to come :) haha quite fun. And i didn't throw frisbee at all during the game XP

then at 5 had to leave to go ama house. took 2 buses and 1 mrt to get there lah. borrowed korean costume from xiao gu. but dunno whether the class going to wear on friday or not :/ watch tv until abt 9 then came home and continue watching tv haha. watched harry potter.

sunday! went to church :) yay! then had class 101. and take pic for JAEL's island. joyce looks scary... went for JTS after that. it was super fun! ate at fish and co. someone order like nobody's business lol. and we got a free seafood platter! it's $59.90 o.O haha cuz the waiter type wrongly. the food was really nice! had mostly seafood. the drinks were interesting! and the food was awesome! so nice of the juniors to treat us so nice food:)

after the super full dinner, they planned games for us! the games were played in pairs. the senior angel partner their junior mortal so i partnered warren:) lucky not the other way round cuz my angel didn't come. anyway i think that it's good for me to have a partner like warren. cuz he's like ares dep fac head so will be quite enthu and will volunteer for stuff. i don't mind playing along and be sporting but i normally won't take the initiative to volunteer. so he volunteered and i happily play along:) haha he's an awesome mortal :D

i think they spent a lot of time planning the games. first there was charades. warren and I and xiao chun and preston were quite zai. we managed to guess the actions quite quickly and didn't have to do forfeit :) then there was the pour water game. pour until the cup sink kind. super scared that we'll get forfeit lah. but we didn't sink it and the next pair kenna the forfeit heh. third game was the song one. like choose a number then preston and kairen will sing/ play the song then ask a question or ask u to complete the lyrics. warren and i didn't do very well for that game XP cuz i don't listen to songs de. but i can answer quite a lot of the questions that the other pairs got leh! then when come to ours, i both song also dunno -.- so had to do forfeit twice. but the forfeits weren't that bad. one of them was to sing a song lah so we sang 'my love' by westlife.

and had the last game which was to guess who the items belong to. i managed to guess warren's one :) haha so obvious. but i didn't say it out loud. in case later wrong then have to do forfeit. i think i'll make another present for him. and i still owe theodore cookies oops. and we ended by taking photos! yup, i think the juniors are really wonderful to plan so much for JTS. they must have put in a lot a lot of effort. a really big THANK YOU! i want the JTS pictures!

and today is yan's birthday! as u can see from the first line. we went island creamery after school. and had a hot fudge sundae, a slice of mudpie and a scoop of ice-cream. haha birthday girl got free scoop of ice-cream. and our family went new york new york for dinner tonight. met madgalene and melissa at lot 1 and zi gu and zi gim at out house downstairs. haha so coincidental. like family gathering like that :)

ok, i need to go do my ppt for tmr. cha guan presentation...

trumpets forever - 10:35 PM :)

Friday, July 17, 2009

shall post random stuff.

this week seems unusually long. i think because we didn't go church on sunday. sunday without church doesn't seem like a sunday so it's like we had 10 days of school without a weekend. and maybe also because my weekend was busy. this weekend is another busy one. but well, as dua gu said, busy but fulfilling :)

haha a few weeks ago, when i first saw the 2009 el compilation songs, the first thing i looked for was 'you hold me now'. and when i found it, i was super happy! haha. and saw a lot of nice songs that we sing during youth too! must thank ivan for his contribution haha (i think he contributed those :D)

racial harmony day celebration next friday. hope our whole class can dress up! it will be really fun and memorable. like our senior class last year. and they even won the best dressed class award:) we should make our teachers dress up too! haha.

rah. can't get that award cuz i'm not in band exco:(

trumpets forever - 8:40 PM :)

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

hmm, interesting. partially true:)

You have always longed for tenderness, love and a sensitivity of feeling into which you would like to blend. You are a very gentle warm person and responsive to 'All things bright and beautiful'. This personifies a caring person, a person who 'needs' and indeed 'needs to be needed'.

In actual fact you are not willing to exert yourself in any way. You have that truly 'laid back' attitude and are unwilling to extend yourself or exert undue effort. You feel that to move forward - be it in your life style or in business relationships - would require more energy output than you are prepared to give at this time. You want to take life easy and your attitude is such that 'Enough is Enough'.

At times one is burdened with more than one's fair share of problems and this would appear to be your situation at present. But you are adamant - you know what you wish to achieve - and by giving a little and taking a little you may well find that the realization of your dreams could become a reality.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.

trumpets forever - 10:01 PM :)

Monday, July 13, 2009

shall finish the post for saturday. or else it will be really very overdue.

firstly, the tea session. it really got me thinking abt what i want to study and be next time. esp since it was after the medicine talk. i should really find out more abt scholarships, universities and courses. and i think the sharing of the teachers were quite inspiring:)

frisbee. hmm sort of learnt something during the game. ok, i know i don't play frisbee well so i'll like drag down the team. like compare me on one team with come other guy on the other team. obviously my team got disadvantage. so i was like feeling quite bad lah. like always cannot catch the frisbee then cannot throw properly also. but i decided that making myself feel bad isn't going to help the team. and some ppl were really encouraging. thanks calvin! :) ya, and i know that it isn't very easy to encourage someone if that person is determined to put himself/ herself down. it can even get irritating and you'll just give up trying to encourage them. yup, i thought that they would appreciate it more if i just tried my best, even if it's not very good, than like complaining and whining that i cannot play frisbee well thoughout the game.

then Iain's birthday party. it's not really the party itself but after the guests left. it was then that all of us cousins really played and enjoyed ourselves a lot. it has been a really long time since we had fun like that. who cares if it's childish haha. it reminded me of how we used to always play together last time and all the wonderful memories of my family. must really thank jamie and sarah haha.

yup. that's all for saturday.

i got my first A since i steped into hwachong :D

trumpets forever - 10:44 PM :)

Sunday, July 12, 2009

church anniversary lunch today. lots of people went:) haha in the end they put all the youth together. they figured that having all the noise at one side better than surround sound XP

then went out with ny batch mates for dinner!

haha not much to narrate. wanted to blog abt my feelings for yesterday. but it's late and my laptop battery running out! that shall be left for another time then :)

mug hard!

trumpets forever - 11:12 PM :)

Saturday, July 11, 2009

eventful day so i shall blog :)

went to school for bio lecture early this morning. it was ok just that quite cold. the ppl in the audi all wearing jacket, then some got hood and i head one person even had gloves o.O then after that we wanted to go listen to the chinese university talk thingy. walked there and they were having refreshments! so we ate buffet XD haha haven't attend anything then just eat first :P then we went to listen for while like 20 mins only. cuz we had to leave for the tea session thing.

Took bus there. The MOE building is cool! they have cool lifts like u go there and press the floor that you want to go to. then the machine thingy will show u which lift to go to and the lift will go directly to that floor so when u go in don't have to press again. cool right! haha. and there was buffet there again! ate a bit. and interacted with the teachers and listened to some of them speak. It was quite interesting:) Some of the things they said were really true haha. Not that the others weren't though XP

And after that cabbed to WCP for frisbee cuz i don't know how to get there from the MOE place. the girls pangseh! When I reached there, all the ppl there were guys -.- but well, we still played. It was fun! haha. except for the fact that I can't really play well. Today cannot catch well also:( erm but it was fun heh :D

Then at abt 7pm, left wcp for Iain's birthday party. Was super late lah. supposed to reach there at 7 then change to 7.30 and i reached at 8.15 i think o.O and i missed seeing all the church ppl:( haha i mainly want to see the kids like carissa, sarah and hannah. but nvm, there was still the star Iain! haha he's super cute! He's one year old. I don't have pics of him though:(

Yep, so went there to eat, talk a bit, sing song, cut cake, and then most ppl left after that. so left our family. and the children all started to play like crazy. we played with jamie and sarah children games. really like remembering our childhood. play games like lao ying zhuo xiao ji, what is the time now Mr Wolf and the game we always play at melissa's house. super funny. we had a lot of fun too! fortunately all the guests left already lah. or they must think that we're so childish haha.

and we finally left and reached home abt 11.15. so now it's time to sleep:) goodnight!

trumpets forever - 11:47 PM :)

Friday, July 10, 2009

haven't blogged in almost a week. shall not bother summarising the whole week since nothing really really interesting i think.

blocks ended on wed and we didn't go out after that -.- lol. we celebrate early on fri then wed nv go out at all. I slacked the day away. then these 2 days back to normal lessons. this morning i was couting with peihua. there's only 123 days which is 17 weeks to A levels! oh gosh! and 39 more school days to prelims and i think 39 more school days to the end of my jc life if after prelims is study break. ahhh!!! so fast. so scary. must start mugging NOW!

oh ms kong isn't in school. i think she's sick o.O hope she gets well soon! hmm got back chem paper 1 and 3. passed so far. phew... hopefully paper 2 pass also then can pass overall. getting back math on mon, bio on fri and i think cll sometime next week ba. hopefully i don't fail anything. math sure pass. bio i don't know. cll erm no comments heh.

i realised that i always think of stuff. then forget for while. then think again. and like somehow won't reach a conclusion -.- i have a packed weekend yay! haha. but we're not going mr lee's house le. cuz of h1n1 lol. but we still have batch dinner! :)

trumpets forever - 9:39 PM :)

Sunday, July 05, 2009

So weird. When I start blogging posts like the last 2 posts then got ppl tag. I'm really quite interested to know who tagged. Can the people please tell me? I supposed you're someone I know so if you don't want to publicise it here or something can come and tell me XD But well, it's fine if you prefer to keep it unknown, it's fine with me:) And i realised that there are ppl that are reading my blog and i don't know it o.O

Back to narrating. Cuz today was quite an eventful day:) It's youth day today! So we went west coast park to celebrate haha. as usual. things went quite smoothly:) Weather was good for the sports games but started raining halfway. But we managed to complete our games in the end :)

But before talking abt west coast park, should talk abt what happened before that first. Today was the last part of the sermon of 2nd timothy. I realised that I was looking forward to the sermon. Won't elaborate on what made me realise that. But ya, i think that's a good thing:) And we celebrated Eugene and Thaddeus' birthday with pizza :D

First game was dodgeball. Everybody run and take the ball then stand there and don't dare to throw -.- oh and alicia was super funny! Our group won dodgeball in the end! our group consists of cavell, josh, janna, lionel and me! And samuel helped us in the finals too. haha i think cuz we quite little ppl then keep on getting ppl to help us and somemore those ppl were very pro that's why in the end can win XD

Frisbee we got Calvin and Ivan haha. Somehow our game like a lot of young adults. Got like Isaac, Rayson, Ivan, Brandon, Jeremy and Hong Ngiap. They are quite pro can. Oh got one goal super cool. Cavell threw from one end and I caught it on the other end. cool right! haha. cuz got the wind helping us:)

The last game was called the rapture. I think it was going on quite well until it rained and disrupted the game:( Haha end up almost everybody at the pavillion lah. Then saw Ivan walking ard and I was like 'eh isn't he supposed to be in charged of hell'. He said heaven ran out of food and hell broke loose -.- haha quite expected lah actually. And we ended much earlier than expected! having muscle ache now o.O

Went for dinner at west mall. The episode of Andrew and Ben on the bus was funny :D And we started asking lame jokes and questions on the bus. Oh and some questions from the last game too. Some questions were interesting I think. How many words are there in the bible? Which church name is also the name of a cheese brand? haha someone guessed cheddar XP What is the longest word in the bible? haha some were meant to tekan one lah. like obviously cannot answer.
Well, thank God for the enjoyable day we had. Good job to Ivan's cell! They managed to pull it off despite the small number of ppl in their cell. I think they did a commendable job:)

And cannot blog too much thought-provoking posts. or else it'll end up like thinking for the sake of thinking. not really what i feel. shall blog only when i really have something to blog abt.

trumpets forever - 8:48 PM :)

Saturday, July 04, 2009

Slacked today away oops. only productive thing was the meeting i guess. haha should blog more thought provoking posts. shows that i actually use my brain to think XP

well, interesting tag:) I know God wants my love. Or else the first and greatest commandment would be something else already. But love is shown through action? I think. Like on Sundays, I can say that I love God and I really mean it. But I don't really know how to love God. Cuz I think I'm quite a, well how to say. If you tell me specifically what to do, I can do it. But I find things like maybe loving God not very easy. I don't know. I think it's easier to love people cuz it's like something physical and you're consciously doing? If i'm not consciously doing something, I somehow feel that i'm not doing it. It's like ok, reading the bible and praying is obviously something that i'm consciously doing. Then the rest of the day, it seems like i don't include God anymore. Cuz like i go school, study, talk to friends etc. doesn't seem to be involving God. Are we supposed to feel that God is constantly with us? I know that the bible says that God is. But is it like something that we can feel? or we just believe it?

Like what I said abt the exam thing in my previous post, it seems easier to know that God is there when like you need His help or something. But when your life seems to be going smoothly and everything, God starts to fade into the background until you need Him. I don't think that it's supposed to be that way right? God is supposed to be in our lives in good times and bad times right? Or is it that like for example I said I felt quite peaceful even during my exams. Is it that God's peace is always there but i just don't know it until there a circumstance like my exam that I think i should be nervous abt then I realise that the peace is there. Cuz like if normally there's no reason to be nervous or scared, I won't know that God's peace is there. Or does God only gives peace when we need it?

trumpets forever - 11:29 PM :)

Friday, July 03, 2009

ok, now for the erm non-narration part?

the week has been relatively ok. not as in the papers were very easy and i could do everything or something. on the contrary, i don't think i will do well cuz i didn't study hard enough. but that's not the point. somehow throughout the week, i feel quite happy. like happy studying, happy doing the paper itself. i know that i don't know much and that there'll be a large chunk that i won't know how to do but i really wasn't nervous or scared or something. in fact, i felt quite at peace. I choose to think that it's cuz of God's help. That He's there to see me through the papers.

Why do I say I choose to think. it's cuz I really dunno. I dunno how to differentiate whether it's cuz God is doing something or cuz I am doing something. Is there even such a thing abt me doing something in the first place? or is everything by God? I'm rather confused. It's like you should always trust God right, it doesn't mean that you rely on God on everything, that you just wait for answers and don't do any thinking on your own right? But how to know to what extent. cuz if you try to think too hard, you'll end up sort of 'not trusting God' cuz everything you do is on your own. does it work this way?

i somehow have this feeling that i can try my very best in whatever i want to, but i still dunno if that's what God wants me to do. like even if i do well in the things i do, 'well' is quite defined by myself. Do your best and leave the rest up to God? There's this tendency that when you do your best, you think it's enough so maybe whether God does anything or not, it doesn't really bother you. I really don't know. Maybe I'm thinking too much. Maybe I'm confusing myself. I don't even want to give opinions now, cuz I am very unsure of myself. And maybe the fact that I'm thinking abt all these just mean that I don't know God well enough.

trumpets forever - 11:16 PM :)

Lol. on the com then start talking to ppl until 1 hour already like haven't do anything.

one week of blocks is over! but still got CLL and chem to study. hmm. see if got anything interesting. oh on tue I studied more bio than i did in the one month of june holidays -.- I studied from 8am to 10pm! with 2 hours break for lunch and dinner. haha then feel so accomplished. but still not enough lah. bio paper was quite tedious. paper 1 was still ok. like got so much time then Grace still can sleep. But paper 2 rush like crazy still cannot finish:/ I left a 2 mark qn blank. supposed to go back and think abt the ans but not enough time.

then tried to study chem the whole day also. but a lot less productive than bio. like will just sit there and stone. try to study. then listen song and start to sing along lol. but chem paper 3 was still ok. I had something to do throughout the 1.5hrs! haha. cuz i didn't really study a lot so was like expecting a lot dunno how to do so will have a lot of extra time to stone. but didn't have time to stone:)

math was ok i guess. didn't have much time to spare as usual. Mr Khairul stand down there to see me draw my loci lah. I think he thinks that the stencil is interesting -.- hopefully i won't get 59 again. and hopefully it's higher than 59.

sleepy. i wanted to watch the show de. but maybe i shall go sleep. haha actually today wanted to come home and sleep after math. then a few of us decided to come eat and i managed to get them to come lot 1! so eat, talk, tell joke, walk ard, shop. and jiawei and joyce came my house. haha blocks haven't over and guess what we were doing. we played weiqi, game of life and i dunno how to spell the game-.- haha quite fun lah. and after that joyce and i went for prayer meeting. ya, so whole day nv get to sleep. zzz...

that's a whole chunk of narration o.O

trumpets forever - 10:48 PM :)