Haiz... everybody seems so down. I don't know how I should be feeling also. Now, I'm actually not feeling upset or anything. I just sort of try to look forward to everyday. Like look forward to seeing my friends at school tmr. Then when I'm at school, look forward to the end of school so that I can go prac my trumpet or go for band prac on band prac days. And after that I look forward to going home and the whole cycle repeats itself. Maybe it is better that I actually look forward to stuff. Maybe this way, I won't be upset or think too much about stuff. Maybe this way, my life will be relatively happier than people who spend the day not looking forward and end up feeling down the whole day. After all, there's this saying that goes since you have to live through the day whether you are happy or not, why not spend it happily? Rather than just going through motion, which will end up affecting people around you as well.
I feel that either way, my life sort of have no purpose. Going to school and studying is not a purpose. It's like a habit because I have to do it everyday. Band is a passion. Ok, maybe we do have that 5 purposes that we are supposed to live out in our lives: worship, fellowship, discipleship, evangelism, ministry.(I'm not even sure it they're correct) But it really is not easy. If I really want to have these 5 purposes in my life, I'm sure that in everything I do, there'll be one of these purposes. So theoretically, life should be very purposeful. But in actual fact, if anybody really wants to have these purposes in their lives, I bet they'll have to think before doing everything. Ya, then maybe half the day will be spent thinking. It's like impractical.
Ok, this is random. But I think that those people who emo on their blogs actually have quite good language. It's like there are quite a lot of cheem stuff. Maybe cuz they think too much or something. It'll end up sounding like literature. And maybe in an attempt to make things not so obvious, they'll use metaphorsand stuff which actually sounds pro in language wise.