his love endures forever;

Monday, February 11, 2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIMIN!!!!!

Had CLL test today. It was ok lah. I think it can be quite well done if studied. But I didn't really study. But I sure can get at least 10 marks cuz I studied the mo4 xie3:) Ya, then had CLL lesson. Sian... CLL for 2.5 hours early in the morning is really not very good. For Chem lecture, we started on new topic: atomic structure. The IP people were like :"orh, learn before already". I really pity the O level track ppl. They never learn that before and the lecturer was like a bullet train as usual. I bet I won't understand anything if I were them. In sec 3, Miss Seetoh took a super long time to make us understand I think. Then whatever we cannot understand, it'll be "nvm, it's not in O level syllabus. Not that important." Now there's no such thing. U have to understand cuz it's in A levels syllabus. Then had Math tutorial. We got back the assignment. I didn't fail. Yay! I think it's because she's nice enough to give ecf marks. Or else I sure fail cuz the partial fraction whole thing wrong. Had sectionals at 2.45pm. We played 2 songs. Wow, so productive...

Ok, now for the not so nice part. It may be a bit emo. Ya, so don't read it if you don't like emo stuff. And I'm just talking to myself, not to anyone in particular. I'm just thinking a lot as usual.

I think I did something wrong again. Seriously, maybe my brain's a bit screwed up. It's like everytime, I do or say something without thinking, I'll regret it afterwards. I don't like reflex action, I don't like adrenaline. And even if I do think about it before doing, it'll still be wrong. When I think about it again after that, I'll realise that I shouldn't have done it. People have to '三思而行', I think I have to '千思而行'. Sometimes, I do things or say things that may hurt people. And I only realise it after I do it. I just can't seem to be more sensitive to people. And I know that sorry won't help after that.

Ya, then yesterday was Sunday again. I think I was sort of looking forward to it. I dunno why also. But seriously, yesterday was quite a happy day relatively. Things seem fine when we're as a cell. We can still talk and laugh and joke, although I don't know if that is real. I hope it was. It was for me though.

Well, maybe I'll end on a better note. This morning I was a bit sian when I went to school. Cuz of some stuff and CLL test. I just realised that it's during CT and not CLL lesson. I was counting on CT to study so was a bit stressed. Ya, but throughout the day, my mood became better. Partly cus the test was over and also cuz of my classmates. They didn't really do anything special but their presence and their 'happiness' sort of rubbed off. And thanks to the bullet train lecturer, I didn't have time to think too much.

trumpets forever - 9:51 PM :)