Today there wasn't cell cuz my whole cell went home to study. (i'm going to type out my rants for a reason which you will see later. it's not for the sake of ranting)
I was actually rather upset at first. I mean they could have at least let me know that they're not coming for cell. Though that won't make up for the time spent preparing for cell, it would make me feel a bit more respected and a bit more noticed. What they did just totally showed me that they don't really bother. They expect the cell leader to be ready for every cell session and be there waiting for them while they just choose as and when they want to appear. And if they choose not to come, just let the cell leader sit there and wait, wondering what happened.
And I was wondering why God let that happen. It's rather disappointing and demoralising. Well, I got my answer. It's God's way of 'teaching me a lesson', letting me know how He feels when I don't do my quiet time. God is prepared every single day, and looking forward to meeting us during our devotion. But when I don't do it, He will be disappointed and sad, and I dunno, maybe a bit abandoned(at least that was how I felt). He'll be there waiting the whole day, hoping that I will do my devotion for that day. God will definitely be more upset than I was today, because He definitely loves me more than I can ever love my cell or any other person or even myself for that matter.
But the thing is, our God is a gracious God. No matter how many times I've failed Him, He still loves me and forgives me. So who am I to be angry with my cell. This is only their first time. I must love them. But I do understand that loving them does not mean letting them do whatever they want. There was a sermon that said that if you must love a person enough before you will point out their mistakes to them. If you just let them do whatever they want, when clearly knowing that what they're doing isn't right, you probably don't love them enough. I will try my best to love them in the way that Jesus loves. I trust that God will give me strength. Nothing is impossible! :)