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Friday, July 13, 2007

It's now the end of week 3. Concert is next fri!!! Left 3 more pracs. I feel kind of unprepared. It seems that we make a really big deal out of syf but not so much out of concert. How come??? I thought two years ago the seniors said that concert is more important cuz it proves that we are a gold band. The gold at syf is just a name, a prove that we can play that two songs well. Our concert shows that we REALLY live up to that name.

I'm starting to think if we're handling the band correctly. Last time, before concert, we had auditions, one to one prac and everything. Now it's like not such a big deal anymore. Seriously, I never scolded my section, never even talk very seriously to them or get angry at them before. And we went throught syf and this coming concert. Actually, I know that my section is not bad, in terms of playing and everything. But I think that there's room for improvement. I feel that I'm not putting much time on my section. I really don't know how to help them cuz I'm so lan4 myself. I ask them to come back then I dunno how to take them or what to take them. During sectionals, we mostly just play through the songs and prac the actions. I think I'm not a very good sl. I feel that the standard of the band is dropping.

Haiz... I'm very tired already. But i know that i have no right to complain... cuz i'm not doing a lot for the band. Cynthia and Shi Min are the ones who really put in a lot of time and effort. I know that they're tired too. Look at Cynthia and you'll know. We're all tired out, trying to do our best to make this concert a success and coping with studies at the same time. But it's coming to an end.

I want to help Shi Min scold the sec 1s. SEC 1s!!! listen here. You better be more serious about band. U know the rules. Don't purposely break them. No handphones during band! Everytime u all go out to prac by yourselves, there's no sound, dunno u prac what. And some people always take out their handphones. Will you die without looking at your handphone for 3 hrs??? And the worst thing is u take out ur handphones not because there's a call or msg. U take it out to play games. For Your Information, band prac is for you to prac ur instruments, not your game skills. And you're not supposed to touch other people's instrus. It may be very tempting, but you're not supposed to do it. There's punishment for that. I tell you, Shi Min cannot stand some of you anymore and Shi Min is one of the nicest person I ever knew. If she cannot stand u, you better go and reflect. Ok, I know that all of you feel very bored when you're sent out to prac by yourselves. Maybe we are sort of negelcting you. But please understand, we ned to prac too. We cannot be there to wait on you hand and foot. Please be more initaitive and have more self-control. You're already very lucky that you get to play for concert. The sec 2s didn't get to play last year and this concert is their first one. We can jolly well take the junior band item out if u think that it's boring to prac those two songs. ok, end of scolding...

My feelings are very mixed. I want the concert to be over and we can pass down and everything, then we can really take a rest. But actually, to a certain extent, I enjoy these stuff that I'm doing. Tiring as they can be, I find pleasure in doing them cuz it shows that i am capable to doing something, makes me feel more useful and makes me more bonded with the band and stuff.

On ya, Ms Chong wants us to pass down after the national day thing and probably after founder's day cuz i heard that we're supposed to perform something. And the ironic thing is, she told us to decide on the passdown date. Most likely going to be we suggest and she decide. Letting us make the decision is not supposed to come with so many conditions!

ok, sorry if the post is very messy and stuff. I'm just being a bit emo here cuz i'm quite tired now. Everything will be fine when i wake up tmr :)

trumpets forever - 7:53 PM :)