This is horrible. I'm like telling myself I cannot do it already even before I start trying. So obviously cannot right. But I somehow feel that I'm not willing to do it. No regrets? I really doubt so. right now, even if I know that I might regret it next time, I don't want to do it. I rather regret it next time when the time comes:/
Gosh. today is a sunday. supposedly my happiest day of the week. and so why is my post starting with such a depressing thought. guess i just don't want to accept it. like hopefully not accepting it means that it won't come true. what a delusion-.- God's plans are always greater. so why am i trying to live my life my way.
To end on a happy note,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CALVIN!!! :D